Looking Back

one word : OMG

Baru lepas tengok balik my stuff time mula2 sampai sini dulu. Sumpah lawak, what was i thinking? Memalukan diri sendiri sungguh. Kenapa la kau sanggup memalukan diri sampai macam tu sekali. Stuff yang aku tengah cakap ni adalah post2 yang lepas, pictures and so on. Serious malu bila baca balik. Nak kata gedik pun ada, mesti orang pun menyampah kan. Tapi lesson learned, kalau nak buat apa2, pikir la banyak kali supaya nanti tengok balik tak menyesal and termalu sendiri. Bila tengok balik sedih ada and malu susah tentu ada. Sedih sebab benda yang suatu hari dulu jadi topic hangat (tak hangat sangat la) sekarang dah takda. Amazing kan how time flies.

December ni aku dah abis belajar and april tahun depan insyaallah dah kembali pulang ke 'rumah' ku. Takut nak pikir apa akan jadi lepas tu. I realised that you can dream about a million things, but sometimes none of it may come true. Bukan nak putus asa or berhenti bermimpi tapi takut sangat life doesn't turn out like I hoped for. Salah satu masalah aku ialah suka sangat pikir pasal masa depan, siap ada plan nak buat apa, nak kawin ngan siapa. Sebenarnya bagus je ada plan tapi aku tertalu fikirkan sangat sampai kadang2 kecewa sangat bila benda tu tak jadi. So benda elok dah jadi tak elok. Pengajarannya - please take it easy and look back at the past once in a while because sometimes it helps.

No longer forward nor behind
I look in hope and fear;
But grateful take the good I find,
The best of now and here.
John G. Whittier

one step at a time

Dah Terlambat

Ini memang masalah dunia sebab bila tak rasa apa2 baru la teringin nak tulis blog. Maybe aku ni jenis yg berlainan sikit, suka simpan masalah sorang2 dan jarang share dengan orang. Sebenarnya banyak benda yang dipendam tapi tak tahu macam mana nak sampaikan. So jalan terbaik tulis dalam diary. Lepas kat dalam diary tu, biar dia sorang je dengar masalah dan luahan hati ni. Lagipun dia tak boleh nak balas apa2, so lebih baik macam tu. Bukan apa, kadang2 bila cerita kat orang kita masih kena tapis2 (maybe tak semua tapi aku macam tu) dan selalu sangat pikir yang dorang takan boleh paham. Tu pun lagi satu masalah. Adakah sebab aku susah nak trust orang? Aku pun tak tahu.

Kalau bukan sebab trust, mungkin sebab aku risau sangat menyusahkan orang lain. Kesian la kawan2 yang nak dengar masalah kita ni. Mana la tau dorang ada kerja yang lagi penting yang nak kena buat dari nak dengar rintihan aku yang takda faedah.

But, I do believe that we should share our problems/feelings with other people (obviously someone that you can trust). Kalau rasa selesa share dengan kawan share la dengan dorang. Sebabnya bila duduk kat sini sorang2 baru rasa perlunya ada someone yang kita boleh share segala masalah. Tujuan nak share bukan sebab nak suruh dorang selesaikan masalah tu (kalau dapat selesaikan pun bagus) but sometimes you just need someone to listen to you. Rasa lega kan bila sekali sekala dapat luahkan perasaan. Please do try this at home.

p/s : pergi la dengar lagu Skyscraper dari Demi Lovato, such a beautiful and inspirational song

My first attempt at poetry

A girl's first love

The green sofa is the place we used to sit,

the smell of spilt milk and the stain is still there,

I can still smell the sweet deodorant that you wear,

the memory of it suddenly rose in my mind like the scent,

With your blue shorts and black t-shirt. You

sat there watching your favourite show,

I sat not too close to you just to sink in every smell that is left there,

the smell of your cigarettes stick on my shirt and

I sat there watching my favourite show too;

YOU.

I can see the excitement in your eyes,

We sat there in silence,

the only conversation that we have is in our mind.

I remember when you held me in your arms,

You gave me the chills and made me cry,

I gave you a kiss on your cheek; forgive me for not doing it so often.

You hold me tighter this time,

as if you don’t want to let me go, Neither do I.

I can feel a tear rolling down your cheek,

Priceless!

I just let it fall and don’t even bother to save it, because

I knew from that moment I am your favourite child.

written by Aliaa Baharuddin

A Problem To Be Solve

Rules: It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own blog, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag twenty people including the person who tagged you. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real.. nothing made up! IF the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name question.

What is your name : Aliaa

A four Letter Word : Aims

A boy's Name : Ahmad Syahir

A girl's Name : Aqilah

An occupation : Accountant

A color : Amethyst

Something you'll wear : Anak Tudung

A type of food : Ayam Masak Lemak

Something found in the bathroom : Ambi Pur

A place : America

A reason for being late : Alar malas nak bangun tidur

Something you'd shout : Adoi!

A movie title : Angels and Demons

Something you drink : Apple Juice

A musical group : All American reject?

An animal : Anjing

A type of car : Avanza

A type of fruit : Avocado

The title of a song : Almost Lover

i would appreciated if you guys like to play this with me especially people who follow my blog.hehe

My Best Friend by Weezer

i know i should be studying right now.well i am.but i am so anxious to upload this photo.this pictures was taken during 'my so called farewell buka puase' with my bestfriends.we had our buka puase together.it was a really fun and heart-rending day.i've received a card from them and a laptop bag from aqilah.thank you so much.i love you guys.BFF!

p/s: will update about my birthday,james morisson&one republic soon.

Qoute of the day

loneliness doesn't always bring out the best in you.
aliaa baharuddin